Where to start…

I have tried so many different times this year to kick start myself to start writing again. I just haven't been able to get my head right. What do you do when you have lost your sense of faith?! This past year has been the breaking point for me, and I am trying to figure …

A year for reflecting…

Day 1-As I wake up from a late night of ringing in the new year- it’s honestly with a heavy heart! I went through the motions of celebrating with a few friends- but my heart truly wasn’t in it. It took a bit for me to realize it last night- but where I was, wasn’t …

Her Lost Soul…

She wasn't sure what was going on with her lately, but nothing felt right anymore. It was a mix of hopeless, helpless, worthless, and just purely lost. We've always heard the reference that we need to take a little time to do some 'soul searching'...but have you ever really put much stock in it?! She …

The Water’s Edge

I lay in bed tonight with the fan blowing in my face, and the soft music playing in my ear. The sound of crashing waves is in the background, I envision being at the water’s edge, letting those waves lap at my feet. The thought is to cast your cares into the water & let …

What Are You So Afraid Of?!?!

That’s what I have been asking myself for months now. I am afraid to breakdown, I am afraid to grieve, I am terrified to show my TRUE heart. With the passing of both my parents- back in March/April - only 18 days apart, I still haven’t shed the tears that I feel like I should …

Exposing Myself…

No makeup…wild, unruly hair… this is the brutally honest version of ME. This is the me that the world now sees daily, yet it is the me that I have come to hate. I see all her flaws and failures., her weakness and her cowardice. I fuel her shame for thinking that by exposing who …

Such a letdown…

The thoughts going through her head would be enough to terrify anyone! Every time she attempted to close her eyes, all she heard were the voice from her life telling her what a failure she was, and how she wasn’t good enough for anything.  Despite any hurdles she had overcome throughout her life, some things …

Let It Out…

She dreamed of following the winding path deeper into the forest... she had to get away from it all! Just maybe, there in the middle of the trees, she could finally scream and let it all out.  The tears could pour from her eyes. The anger, sadness, and overall brokenness could all be lost there. …

Will It Ever End??

There is a hollowness in my soul that simply can not be filled. What even caused it to form?  I guess, honestly...it would be a combination of so many things, spanning an entire lifetime now. From pain and anger, bitterness and resentment...to loss and death, manipulation and rejection. It all plays a part, chiseling away …

Chipping Away At The Masks…

  She did....her way...always written from the third person perspective.  Does that make the truth any less painful to swallow? Honestly, no...not really.  In a sense, that makes it seem as though I would be living, or telling, a lie.  The thoughts, the feelings, even the demons...are mine to bear. Sure, some similarities may exist …