I seem to have lost who I was, who I am, and who I am supposed to be….this is not a place I recommend to be!! My faith is gone, my beliefs are questioned, and my perspective is so distorted – I just don’t see it straightening back out. So, where does that leave me?!?! Honestly, in an even worse place than if I was simply an innocent child. At least as a child, you don’t know the ways of the world yet. Just because I can see what is wrong, and may even know what to do to, that doesn’t mean that I have the actual inner strength to be able to do it. After a lifetime of being a certain way, change isn’t easy. Not making excuses, just live in a would of fear, shame & regret.