When you don’t talk politics and you don’t talk religion, what does that leave? Well, how about strengths, weaknesses, successes and failures, even inner demons and just life in general. We can keep the conversation to generalization, or share personal experience
Last week I said that I was going to start myself on a challenge to go through the Purpose Driven Life and post daily about that journey. Hmm, not a single post yet. My life decided to turn topsy-turvy and I haven’t accomplished a dang thing . I can honestly say.. The last week has been one of my hardest struggles in a while.
I have shared tidbits of my personal story since beginning the blog back in April, but I have kept to the milder stories. The battle with depression and anxiety is a very real issue that most of the world will never understand. After reaching out for help, many of us have opted for whatever cocktail of pharmaceuticals that the doctor thinks will help the best. Believe me, it takes a lot of trial and error to get that just right and allow daily life to be relatively normal.
Once you get everything JUST RIGHT, one of the worst things you can do is goof up and let yourself run out for almost a week. Oh my goodness…. Why do I share this??? Because sometimes you just have to admit why you have been so ‘off’. Or grumpy, or distant..whatever word you want to put on it.
But, I also decided to share to simply show the human side of living with the invisible illnesses. Sometimes, you almost wish that what you suffer from was more explainable. Cancers – you see the changes as those you know and love get sick. Doctors can explain exactly, well for the most part, what is going on, and what to expect and what treatment options you have. Diabetes, or illnesses like that…you know you can control with diet and exercise, or you may have to take insulin to regulate your body. But the causes and effects are commonly talked about, and how to manage everything.
Then you come to depression, anxiety disorders, bipolar disorder, even ADHD…And suddenly those are taboo topics that no one wants to talk about, let alone deal with. Instead, we are told things like ‘oh, just get over it’, or ‘what have you got to be depressed about?’, or any number of other careless comments. Do people really think we WANT to deal with these things?? Do they think we LIKE being so miserable? I truly wish it was as simple as ‘oh snap out of it!!’ Because, trust me…I would do just that! Just as I am sure that many others would as well.
I didn’t mean to ramble on so long, and somehow not really get to a specific point today. For me, that is a consequence of what I personally deal with though. The lack of concentration, or focus, is beyond frustrating. I have such huge goals that I want to accomplish in this life. I believe with all my heart that my purpose is to help others better their lives as well. I just want folks to see and understand….that we ALL have struggles…very real struggles….and they can be overcome.
To the ones on the outside, just be very mindful of how you talk to people. You have NO IDEA the turmoil that they live with on the inside. Just because you don’t necessarily SEE the illness, doesn’t make it any less serious!! We all have bad days, no doubt. But the magnitude of those bad days definitely varies from person to person.