Why is it so hard sometimes to just get my thoughts all together in one place?!?! My goodness, I have been trying all day to come up with a fitting post. I start it, I delete it. I start it again, I delete it again. It’s been a vicious cycle that is certainly beginning to frustrate my mind.
I guess it is partly because I am finding myself a bit uncertain of the direction I want to take the blog. I have seen my writing transition for the past few months – putting a bit more of myself into my work, making it more personal. Is that what will get my messages out the best? I suppose only time will tell on that.
If only I could get the ME in my mind, to match the ME of reality…then I just might find the path to the next phase of my journey. I believe that at birth with are graced with a gift from our creator. The key is to figure out what that gift truly is, and then learn how to utilize it. Some can even he blessed with multiple gifts…again, it’s all about learning how to use them.
All I know is that I don’t want to spend my life helping someone else pursue their dreams by being their employee. I want to spread my wings so wide that I am able to set sail on my own journey, and be able to sustain the cost of living these days. Sure, there is still some fear in my mind and in my heart. I have a little harder time with the whole ‘practice what you preach’ aspect, lol.
I want to write, and create, and help motivate others to pursue the betterment for their own lives. How do I use my gifts for that? Well, I somewhat know the how… but as is probably the most common excuse for many of us – I just don’t have the time to dedicate to the dreams as I would like. Working full time should leave me a little time, but lately – the stresses of daily life have taken such a toll that I have been both physically and mentally drained.
Several have told me that they believe I am a healer of sorts, having used my words to help get them through some different times. Is that possible?? Can I really have that effect?? More importantly, why do I doubt that possibility? What is it that always causes me to think that I am not worthy of great things. As you see, I see face my own challenges daily while doing everything in my power to constantly lift others up.