Sometimes there comes along that once person that you desperately want to help, but when you do….it totally blows up in you face.I am a bit nervous that I damaged a friendship beyond repair. I am such a nonconfrontaí person. All I ever wanted to do was protect someone from going down the same path I went.
How am I every going to believe that I can help the masses?!. I am at a loss today..
I came to the lake house for a bit to try and help me think and Rationalize this all out. I know,you can’t see their own problem and so can’t even befinw to help themselves.
But when someone you Care about so much- probably because she reminds me so much of me at that age….I’m just trying to keep her from making the same Mistakes I did.
But, I the process of last night…right now i will be lucky if she ever comes to me again.. My biggest fear right now is that I all never help anyone, but only make matters worse.
Can I regain the strength to get myself back on track……I have to!! There are out there that I can help…there’s got to be!!! This was a test for me, one that I failed on many levels. And proved that I am but a human with feelings and love and compassion….
Until next time…