I’ve got a lot weighing on my mind…and it revolves around friendship. I’ve always felt like the one on the outside of all the circles. And, for the most part…I’ve been okay with that
The few people that I have ever been able to claim as friends…well, I often wonder when it comes down to it. Far too often, I find myself wondering why is it so hard to make TRUE friends? Why do I care so much… I try to protect the ones I care for, it seems to the point of pushing them away.
Am I the only one that has this struggle?? And more importantly, how do I overcome it? Maybe it’s a bit of my old ways trying to peek out – thinking do I really deserve to have anyone close to me?
I have been trying to look for the lesson here…because I seem to keep getting presented with similar situations. I dont know how to not care…I dont know how to not be protective…. Maybe its time to just worry about me for awhile. Focus on growing along my path.
Oh my this is going to be a difficult one. But, I can’t protect others even when I see them making the same mistakes I made. I just have to be there when they fall, and help them if they ask. Maybe that’s it… but doesn’t that contradict the path I thought I was to take??
Maybe it’s about sharing my stories…. And let people take what they need from that. Well, here’s to my lesson learned!! Hopefully I have pushed everyone away…time will tell.